What do you want?

When everything I need is before me, I lose all interest in being alive.

Is it just me, or is anyone else feeling uninspired and overstimulated?

I am the type of person who naturally sees the most minuscule detail one minute, then zooms out and sees the bigger picture in the next.

For most of my life, I did not "know" what I wanted. In reality, I am perfectly aware of what I want. I just let others convince me not to pursue it.

My existential anxiety comes from not honoring who I am and what I find valuable.

I have witnessed how short life can be.

I want to live a full life.

A life of impact.

My habit of telling myself no has gotten so bad that, at several points in my life, I would go on auto-pilot. It's the same weirdness you feel while driving, and suddenly, you find yourself at your destination. Then you sometimes wonder, how the hell did I get here without dying?

So, when we find ourselves confused or unable to take action to pursue what we want - act. Don't let yourself be convinced otherwise.

Love on...

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